From the archives of a juggalo forum .
“The Carnival Is Real
By Jessika
Just woke up this morning. I signed online and the first IM I got was from a friend telling me some Juggalos down in Florida killed themselves.
Damn.
What a way to be greeted in the morning but to hear some of your family died. I asked why, and supposedly from the note they left a note saying all they had in life was the carnival and the faith it brought them and that after listening to “Thy Unveiling” they felt ICP tricked them. I think that’s the part that saddens me most. Granted, I have no doubt those Juggalos are sitting in Heaven, chillin’ in thier own Shangri-La. They probably have some Hot bitches buffing their pickle, faygo bottles being punted up to them from concerts down here, and diamonds raining all over their faces. If they lived by the carnival and well, god, then I have no doubt they made it.
But what saddened me because they felt ICP tricked them into believing something that wasn’t real. I have spent a lot of time talking about this and more importantly thinking about it, and I don’t think ICP was saying that’s what they tricked y’all about. I think that they mean tricked in the sense that they all along were preaching god, and not being wicked. Like, they knew no one would listen to them just flat out preaching to them… so they did the wicked shit… in a good way if you feel me.
Now to some of us, we felt it all along… but some kids… well.. they didn’t. I suppose I could be wrong about what ICP meant… but for now that’s what I believe. Now even if ICP was lying the WHOLE time and it was a gimmick, and I don’t think it is at ALL, but for the sake of argument. Ninjas shouldn’t ever go and kill themselves over it. Because even if ICP was lying, the fact is and the fact remains this.
The Carnival, is real.
Now, allow me to explain it before someone calls me a crazy fanatic.
I believe in it because of my belief that all religions and beliefs are right and wrong. Wrong because they preach themselves as the ONLY truth but right because they teach you to be good and the basic fundamentals of goodness.
I believe God allows you to believe whatever you want, so long as you are a good person. This is why Jews, Muslims, and Christians alike all have some kind of miracle chilling in their religion.
I mean if there was one true religion why wouldn’t god just come down and chill and say “believe this, this is true.” I mean you think he would really just sit back and laugh at us and say “Hahah you are Christian.. WRONG! HELL FOR YOU!!!”. Naw… all he cares about is that you are good. Now an atheist would say “now if there was a god why wouldn’t he just show himself? Then there would be no doubt.” but think about that on two levels.
One there is just to many things going on this world we just can not explain in scientific ways. We can only explain it with faith.
Two. Faith. Check it. If you knew there was a god definitely and that by going out and shooting someone you are going to hell… you wouldn’t. Because you KNOW god is there, you KNOW god is real. There is no temptation to be bad so in actuality your morals are never tested. If your morals are never tested then really, how do you KNOW you have been good? Were you good because you were good, or because you had no other choice?
That’s the most sense I can make out of it. I just have ideas. Who knows if they are right or wrong.
So where does this lead with the Carnival? I think god sits back and looks at the carnival and is like
“damn. Look at that. thousands of children who were wrong, misguided, bored with church, and having no other place to find faith, found it in music. Sure, they look at it like a carnival will come for them when they die, but.. look at them. They love each other like family, treat each other better then most, and are starting to do that right things. Check that out.
And look at that kid… he used to be a racist… he was headed down a path of murder based on race… and look at what the music did, because he found me in a carnival. aiight… straight… if that’s what he believes.. that’s what will great him when he dies”.
After all when you die if you go to heaven you get this ultimate reward… but who’s to say your ultimate reward is the same as mine? There can’t be just one heaven. Heaven, judgment, and afterlife is whatever form you can best relate to, and fit in with. If you think you are gonna be judged at a pearly gate with saint peter chilling with a book… looking at your sins… well is that really so much different then being judged by “jokers cards” at a carnival? Really? I don’t think so. Yet no one has problems looking at St. Peter like it’s perfectly natural. You begin to relate to judgment like visiting a carnival and you are a cult.
So if when some kid dies, has done good, and deserves his ultimate reward and he is going to heaven… and he believes he’s going to a carnival.. you think God is just going to hoe him out on that? It’s the ultimate paradise and to some kids… the ideas that changed them is the places they want to remain for eternity. God bless them for that.
However he is, May the Juggalos find him.
One Love to all my family…. and if you ever feel so down and out you want to just end it, talk to someone! Talk to me! Jesse3957 on AIM, Jesse3957@AOL.com.. I love y’all.
Jessika”
http://www.psychopathicforums.com/forum/index.php?topic=2137.0
I dont know how legitimate this is but i think its proof of more juggalos committing cult like activity with another juggalo suicide due to icps music.
